the pain.

It started out small

With a little bit of kindling

The light hurt my eyes

My face began to thaw

I recoiled from the pain

Longing to stay numb

But it was too late

The feeling woke me up

I held my fingers out

Passed my hand through the flame

But only for a moment

To avoid the searing pain

I know it's what I need 

To turn my back toward the chill

But there's comfort in the cold

Lullabies me til I'm still

I used to feel the ache

Felt the shiver in my bones

But I learned to love the ice
I made it my home

Without the heat I'll die

Too much and I will burn

Can I learn to love the blaze

And toward the warmth, turn

The fire purifies my past
The ice preserves my wounds

Pain going forward and back

And I get to choose

Like a hand on a hot stove
I'll touch it for a moment

The heat surrounds me

The sting begins to fade

So I'll gather my courage

Take a step towards the flames

I'd rather feel alive

Than forever freeze the pain