worth it.

This isn’t what you thought it would be

All your good intentions, brave declarations

They seem like a sick joke in light of the current reality

You walked in the door, you signed on the dotted line

You committed to this battle, and you set aside the time

You planned and calculated, you spent precious anxiety

You put on your bold face and braced yourself for difficulty

But this, this isn’t what you thought it would be

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Yeah, you rolled up your sleeves, but you didn’t anticipate digging this deep

All that time spent running and hiding at least had an illusion of safety

But now you realize, the face of the enemy is far uglier in the daylight that your dreams

As the numbness wears off, the pain takes your breath away

The reasoning you once clung to falls apart at your feet

No explanation, no knowledge offers relief

As your chest caves in and the pain becomes crippling, you glance at the One who could save you from your misery

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Why does He just stand there? Can’t He see? Can’t He hear? Isn’t He the One who’s able to dry every tear?

This God, this Savior King, Creator, Great I AM

He says He sympathizes and has a greater plan

He asked you to trust Him

He called you to walk the wind and waves

In confusion you cry out “What now?”

The only thing you feel is doubt

You want to take heart and conquer the raging sea

But you’ve nothing left to give, and your resolve is crumbling

All you know is healing hurts, and freedom feels worse than bondage

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Don’t give up. Hold on tight and don’t turn back.

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Lift your face to the calmer of your heart under attack

Lock eyes. Don’t look away.

O afflicted one, storm tossed, He has something He wants to say

Come close, press in, and hear the shepherd’s voice

Feel the hands that formed you cup your tear-streaked face

You’re desperate for His words as He bends to whisper to your heart

- “Worth it.” Hear Him say “Worth it.”

Every step in spite of fear, every truth instead of lie, every praise despite the pain

It’s gonna be worth it.

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He knows that this hurts, He knows this is hard

But don’t get too mad at you Maker for allowing the scars

There’s something He knows that you can’t see just yet

He’s been to the other side, and He knows it’s worth it.

Your struggle’s not in vain and not one drop of sweat is wasted

The darkness isn’t permanent and your joy won’t stay forever dormant

Despite what your mind tells you, you will keep on breathing

But right now you need to hear “Worth it.”

I promise you, it’s worth it.

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The battle may exceed your expectations but the victory will too

The storm might be wild, but hope anchors you

Cling to this truth when all else is stripped away

“Worth it,” He says, “and your trembling heart I’ll stay”

So look up, look up, and dare to believe

That what you’re feeling right now is only temporary

If you want to feel the freedom then you have to feel the pain, but it keeps your head above the water to know you have a future to gain

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But, listen up, “It’s gonna be worth it” can only ring true

If your faith is in something the won’t fail you

See, you know disappointment; it’s an old familiar friend

And you don’t think you could handle meeting it again

So hold onto this when the doubt creeps back in:

You can know it’s worth it, because “Worth it” depends on Him

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To feel His arms hold you close and His touch still your fears

To hear Him sing over you and sense His embrace catch your tears

To discover peace in the storm and see the God who walks on water

To know whatever may come, He still calls you “Daughter”

This love is worth it and this hope won’t disappoint

You will see His face

You will know His glory

So keep fighting, keep digging, keep feeling the feelings

This chapter you’re in is just a piece of your story

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I don’t have many answers and I don’t enjoy pain

I still ask “Why God?” and feel my endurance is in vain

So raise your voice with me now and cry out “God I do believe!”

He’s a good dad, and He’ll help our unbelief

He’s proved Himself faithful time and time again

So let’s open up our hearts and entrust ourselves to Him

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See, before we ever chose to say “it’s worth it” to Him, He chose agony, our desperate hearts to win

He’s the inventor of “Worth it” He thought of it first

Two thousand years ago He proved it on the cross

With arms spread wide across an ugly awful tree, He endured the pain

Thinking of you, thinking of me

He saw everything about you, every detail of your life

And with the joy set before Him, He lifted up His eyes

“Worth it,” He said “You’re worth it to me, my love.”

He knows the joy we’ll share when we reach the other side

To know His heart is worth it, so don’t give up the fight